an update...

"I have to go back to doing the wrong things
to the field of making horrible mistakes
I have to pick fights with the intent of losing
because I'm not tough enough for this life yet
your protector is weak and soft,
not strong enough to shield you anymore
from all the slings and arrows,
you don't deserve.
But I have to return to those nights
of drunken uncertainty
to those nights
where nothing existed
except every possiblity
and the false hopes and aspirations
of meeting them all."

I made it.