pouring wine in a dark kitchen

I sometimes refer to it as my dad being on my heels.

Starting week two of total and unrestricted [except for me being broke, which is pretty restrictive] binge of malt liquor [a 40 a day keeps the doctor away], whiskey, and all kinds of wines and beers. I'm drinking now. 1:28am, monday night, alone, hopefully I'll go to bed soon so I can get up for work by 7am. Been having trouble sleeping lately. 4 hours of sleep average. those kinds of nights that your mind makes sure you remember the past and you curse yourself to sleep.

tomorrow is september 11th.