insomnia

can't sleep. I close my eyes and see dirty blue kentucky skies. rows of shaved heads in front of me. mess halls and road marches.

the 46th AG, the 5/15.

my M16A4, the picture of her tied to my bed post. The lights in the hallway that never turned off, the "left, left, left, right, kill"

my stomach growls, but there's nothing to eat. memories of falling asleep [passing out] hungry every night.

then there are still the nightmares.